I did not know what to make of this morning news.

A mixture of emptiness (not knowing what to think)

and shock still pains my insides. My childhood crush, who I haven%26#039;t seen in over 2 years is possibly dying from prostate cancer. It has spread to his stomach.

I want to rush over to the hospital this week but I can%26#039;t let go of other big responsibilities. I%26#039;m forced to wait until the next weekend. To be honest, the hospital visit itself frightens me because I don%26#039;t want to see a man I sincerely cared for (unknowingly to him) in such a state. I can%26#039;t use the word love (although it felt like it) because I%26#039;ve never really known him enough to express my fondness as love. I still remember his shy smiles.

Should I finally tell him, I was the girl who really liked you from a distance.

Or would it be too inappropriate and burry the feelings instead|||I think you should seriously go see him as soon as you can. He%26#039;ll need all the support he can get. As far as telling him your feelings, that%26#039;s something you%26#039;ll have to determine on your own. Go with your instincts and you should be fine.|||If he has a family ( wife and kids) I would bury it. I would just tell him that I really cared about him when we were kids and talk about good things you remember.

If he doesn%26#039;t have a wife you may want to go into mor details about how you felt from afar and kid around about how he never knew.

Either way keep it light hearted and do not give him any reason to ponder the choices he has made in his life.

Good luck!|||Go and tell him. He could use the lift, I am sure!